Dear Readers,

I have an announcement to make. After 5 years of blogging, I finally bought my own URL and have a whole new site design.

Please come and visit me, check out my redesign, and follow me there!

There will be a random winner selected to win a prize – so come and leave me a comment!





Went out for drinks with co-workers last night, got sick on booze for the first time in my life.

Am playing hookie today with Huz – we dropped the kiddo off at daycare and ate a lovely breakfast at Marche. Now we’re going shopping for some fun new clothes, then will watch a matinee, then will go pick out cheeses from Whole Foods for my wine and cheese party tomorrow night.


I love birthdays!!!

Here are some lovely rooms that inspire me and make me drool at the same time.

I think it’s safe to say that I like a splash of color!

So I’m really thinking about this new blog idea. It’s a fresh start; a way to reinvent and renew. What kind of things do you all like to read when you go online? I’m thinking of trying my hand at having a daily photo, some fashion stuff (like the fun wardrobe I put together last night), food photos and recipe sharing, stuff like that. Help me decide what it is I’m good at doing and help me reinvent a new site.

It’s a new year and frustrations abound.

I started this blog to share my photos in college.

This blog became my personal diary – a space to be completely myself and to grow out of the confines of conservative Christianity into the person I decided to be.

My family now reads this blog and I’ve been told by 2 of them that this is “their only link” to me and my daughter.

I offended family members with my 5 lines about Christmas vacation (even though I was very conservative with what I said and I could have vented about a lot more).

So, not only am I obligated to continue this blog as the only link to my life and my daughter’s life (even though there is no reciprocal link to their life, thoughts or feelings), but now I am not allowed to say what I think here. I’m not allowed to use this space as my personal blog anymore, even though that’s why I started it.

Tell me. How exactly is that fair?

I’m considering deleting this blog and starting afresh with a new URL that I don’t share with anyone I know.

Happy flipping new year.

I had a great weekend. I didn’t travel or do anything exotic, I simply enjoyed spending time with my husband and daughter. Making it better was the amazingly cool weather we’ve been having. July and 72 degrees!? A miracle.

Friday night was date night for Huz and I. While we had plans to go to dinner and see Harry Potter, we ended up just doing dinner because of the time. (When you have a toddler alarm clock that, lately, has been going off at 5:45a.m., you aren’t inclined to stay out past midnight). And that’s okay. Dinner at Brick Tops was wonderful. We enjoyed cocktails at the bar, some fresh guacamole as an appetizer, halibut with lump crab and butter herb sauce with pureed Parmesan cauliflower for me, and steak frites for Huz. We laughed, flirted, and enjoyed our time without a toddler to run after. We used to take dates for granted, but no longer.

Saturday was Claire and Mommy day, as that’s Huz’s library day to research and write. He rode off on his bicycle to Vanderbilt as Claire and I took off in the car with jogging stroller in the trunk to go for a run in a local park. Such mild weather makes for a happy running mom, even if she has to push nearly 50 lbs in front of her (~23 pounds of kid and probably as much for the stroller). We relaxed in the grass after our few miles out on the trail and while I did sit ups on the sidewalk, Claire decided it would be fun to climb aboard and ride on my stomach. I persisted in my workout and got called a “dedicated mother” by some passersby. We went home and I tried out a kid-carrying backpack for the first time. While Claire rode I clipped some weeds in the yard. Then we fed our out-of-town friends’ cats and picked up some burgers for a front yard picnic. After Claire’s 2 1/2 nap, we headed off to a girlfriend’s “Blessingway.” (Have you heard of this? I hadn’t either, but it’s basically an alternative to a baby shower – one without gifts that focuses instead on friendship, community, and well wishes/prayers for the mother and father to be. This particular friend plans to have this child (her 2nd) at home with a midwife. So she needs these well wishes and prayers! I took lots of photos during the proceedings which included making a bead necklace for her and painting her round stomach with henna. I’ll show some after I process them.)

Sunday was family day. After church and a THREE hour nap (!!) we went on a family hike at Lake Radnor. Something really touched me on this hike, other than Claire running madly down the forest path with pure glee. It was when she looked behind her at one point and called out “Daddy!?” and his response was “I’m right here, Claire. I’m always right here.” It was beautiful to me because it’s true. He is always right here – for her, for me. He’s faithful and dedicated and I fell in love with him all over again at that moment. After getting back home and getting the kiddo in bed, Huz and I enjoyed a lovely dinner out on the cool patio. Candles flickered as we ate meatball and zucchini kebabs, polished off a bottle of red Zin, and dove into dessert. It was a great time of bonding and connecting as a couple.

Random video taken on my phone.

Picnic Frock GIVEAWAY!!!!

Swanki Hats GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!

I’m hoping to win one of these cute hats!

I’m listening to this right now and thinking of Memphis.

I’m liking this idea and wanting some right about now.

I’m loving these photo ropes that I bought for my office. I plan to have a rotating gallery of the photos I shoot.

I saw Eagle vs Shark the other night and am calling it the New Zealand version of Napolean Dynamite. Pretty funny and light – perfect for a PMSy evening on the couch.

I saw this movie the other night and really, really enjoyed it. Partly because I’ve been to Bruges and also because the dialogue is hilarious, despite the serious subject.

I found out recently that Colin Farrell was born the same year as me. I don’t know how I feel about that.

I’m thinking of submitting something to this art show. Eeek!

That is all.

The Bear has been sick since Friday and I am so over it. I (and Huz) have been as selfless and nurturing as possible, but when she hits me and arches her back and screams and throws her pacifier and stuffed bunny at me? I get over parenthood in a quick hurry. I hate to admit that because instantly I cry and feel guilty, but it’s just the truth, damn it, and somebody needs to say it.

At book club last night someone mentioned that NPR did a story about some blog where mothers admit to horrible thoughts or actions. I’m going to find this right now in hopes that it will make me feel better about the frustrations of the last week.

Here it is. I am going to start reading and hope that it’s like a balm to my weary, guilty, bad-mom soul.

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