Okay, I think I’ve officially got cabin fever. Transitioning straight from going to work every single day to being at home for 2.5 weeks is tough. It helps that it has been cold out and that Huz only has to go into school 3 days a week for several hours. It also has helped taking so many family walks together, but I’m getting bored, man! I can’t leave to go shopping because there isn’t anything close enough that would ensure my arrival back home in exactly 2 hours (when Claire needs to eat) and I’m reluctant to go out together as a family for very long because I have no idea how to breastfeed in public. I can’t just whip it out, staring down at her making sure she’s opening wide enough to latch on correctly when I’m all draped in a blanket, now can I? How do you do it breastfeeding Moms? I need to know because I think I’m going crazy over here!

We signed up for a diaper service that just started in Nashville – yippee! Now I can try cloth diapers, feel good about the environment*, help Claire to potty train sooner (it’s true – do the research), save money, AND not have to deal with washing the poop in my own washing machine. Sweet! They are coming this afternoon with our delivery and a tutorial. How much of a mom does it make me that I’m truly excited by this? How much of a mom does it make me that when the breast pump I ordered arrived I was stoked? (How much of a bovine does it make me that when I hooked myself up to said machine I squirted out white streams of milk, making 2 oz. in barely 2 minutes? Damn, I’m a milk-making machine, yo!)

Huz is doing all he can to support me – he almost kicked me out of the house yesterday and insisted I get a manicure this week when he’s home with Claire. I think I’m going to take him up on this. Look at the nice present he brought home for me the other day.


The card read, “I’m still in awe of you.” It was referring to one of the sweetest things I’ve ever heard in my life – in the delivery room, between pushes, he leaned over me and said, “Victoria, I love you more than I’ve ever loved you before. I’m in awe of you and there’s no place I’d rather be than right here with you now.” He’s the greatest thing that ever happened to me and I’ll never get tired of saying it.

Here’s me and the Widget taking a nap – something I really should do more often.


*In only 2.5 weeks time, we feel like we’ve destroyed the landfills with all the diapers Claire goes through. We’ve literally doubled how much trash we produce every week. She goes through 12-15 every day. Damn, that’s a lot of non-biodegradable diapers!